I’m in need of centering myself. So yesterday I went to the beach. There’s something about being next to the ocean that heals me. I’m at peace there. There’s no place like it. I feel safe there.
This has been such a long week. I finally return to work tomorrow. I think I can function now.
I’ve made it a point these past couple of days to be out. It was good. Being around my best friends was a reminder I’m not alone. It’s a blessing to have people who you love, love you the same in return. It’s true… you take care of the people you love, they will take care of you. My circle is small but they are the heart of my life. It’s so important to nurture your relationships. Never be too busy to spend time with those who are important to you. My heart is broken but I feel so blessed at the same time. I’m so use to doing everything myself. Depending on always just myself. I know now that I don’t have to always carry the weight of the world on my shoulders alone. They have my back.
We have a new moon in Cancer today. If you wanna know more… http://www.collective-evolution.com/2016/07/03/new-moon-in-cancer-a-new-step-forward/
I know I’ve been so mad at the universe lately. But Universe, I’m sure you understand.
The universe is wise and loving. Sometimes I lose hope, I doubt the stars, I get lost… but I always find my way back. There is nothing more beautiful than what the universe gives to us. Sunrises, sunsets, ocean views… Love… and they’re all free 😊 That’s enough to keep me going.
There are some major shifts happening. Maybe not everyone feels it… Or maybe it affects people in different ways. I follow Nydia (astrologer) and she said yesterday that some of us are in pain right now. Then I’m like wtf, how do you know, lol. But I know… I believe in astrology. Time and time again it proves itself to me. We may not all be experiencing the same level of drastic changes but collectively, the world is suffering. Some of us will be guided by the light and some of us will scum to the dark side. And I believe everyone is feeling pretty sensitive right now. A lot of things are ending. I myself have let go of certain things. The doors from the past are closing. Bye bye past 👋 I’m moving on to the next level in my life.
I asked for answers…for meaning. I have them now. Am I still in pain? Yes. But now I have a reason. I’m going to use Lucy as a driving force to take me where I need to go. I was very conflicted before. I had so much on my plate and didn’t know what the hell I was gonna do. I was scared. I couldn’t see clearly. That’s how I’ve felt this past year. Just lost.
The Leo King asked… What were you doing in the summer of 2012 and what’s going on now in your life, summer 2016. He said there is a connection. Omfg. There is. One of my major goals by 30 was to buy a home on my own. And I did. I also lost Jill, whom we didn’t have for very long but still tragic. And now, summer of 2016, I’ve decided to sell my home and I’ve experienced a great lost. Not to mention this 4 year cycle as a whole 😒 I’ve grown so much. And there is something about 4 year cycles with me. It’s like make or break time. I don’t know why. I told my best friend a little while ago my life is going to drastically change. I said one year from now nothing will be the same. I won’t be the same. That my life will ascend to a whole new level. I see it happening now. Crazy….the first word that comes to my mind.
Now that I’m clear, its time to do the work and move forward. I have to be brave and have faith that the universe is taking me where I need to go. I don’t know for sure if I’m making the right decisions. I feel it in my gut though. This time I will follow my intuition and have faith in myself. Hey, if I fall on my face…that’s OK. I’ve fallen on my face before. I know my strength and what I’m capable of. I’ve always said I rather live a life full of excitement than full of regrets. I’m usual pretty conservative and I do like stability. I’m not gonna go off the deep end 😂 Last thing I’d ever want is to depend on someone else to take care of me. I will always take care of myself and make smart decision. A lot of people questioned the whole selling my house thing. I’m a little nervous about it but in the end, I knew this wasn’t where I was going to stay. There was always a plan. It’s just happening a little sooner than I expected. This was an investment 4 years ago and now it’s finally paying off. It’s going to get me to the next level. I didn’t know exactly how it was going to play out then…but I knew I had to make that commitment. Trust me, saving and sacrificing wasn’t easy. Then having to give all your money away and not being sure if it’s something you really wanted was scary as hell. Thank the universe I did though. Doors are opening now…I’m so ready.
Something happened yesterday while I was at the beach. I received a “sign.” 😊 I think Lucy is OK. It was weird. If you were there, I think you’d think so too. My muse was there… he thinks so 😆
It’s only 7 and I’m tired already 👵 Gonna call it.
If anyone is struggling right now out there…I feel you. All I can say is- it will be OK. Try and stay strong. Centering yourself is a must. Sending lots of love and light your way 💙💙💙🙏
It was cold af 😰 Bay area weather sucks.