Tag: Heartbreak

I Wanted You To Be The One

I’ll be honest…

I wanted you to be the one because I was tired of waiting.

I wanted you to be the one because I was tired of searching.

I wanted you to be the one because the universe brought you back to me.

I wanted you to be the one because your hands felt familiar.

They are hands I once trusted.

Hands that I once loved.

I wanted to believe that the years of puddle jumping were over.

I wanted you to be the one.

But I knew…no matter how hard I tried to see the beauty… Continue reading “I Wanted You To Be The One”

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Love Leaves (But It Always Returns)

Love left and came back with new eyes, with new hands. Love left and came back with a voice I did not recognize, with a heart I did not expect. Yes – love left, but when it came back I could not help but forgive it, for it was more beautiful than I had ever imagined; it was bigger than I had ever hoped.

You see, when love left it did not ask me to follow it, but I insisted. I tried with every bone in my body to convince it that I was worthy, that I was capable of making it last. I dressed my words in silken poetry; I tried to make it stay with prose and praise. I pleaded with love, like a nostalgic beggar just asking to go home again. But, love still left. It still slipped through my fingers. Continue reading “Love Leaves (But It Always Returns)”

then you came along

I was okay…

then you came along.

I was doing fine…

living in my mind.

then you came along.

So unexpected.

I forgot what it felt like…

to have no control at all.

My emotions raging like wild fire.

I’m finding it hard to breath.

Holding on by a thread.

I’m waiting…

for you.

Laying in a body of what feels like an open sea.

Still…looking for any sign of you.

Some nights I thrash and throttle with the waves.

Fiercely trying to hold on through the night.

Some days the waters are calm and I feel a sigh of relief.

I become hopeful that you’ll come for me.

But at this moment…

i feel empty.

I really don’t know anymore.

Would you really leave me out here alone to drown?

The seed of fear is finding life in me.

I really was okay…

before you came along.

Lingering in the shallow waters.

I was safe.

then you came along.