You were such a big part of my heart at one point. I can’t say my life because it was short-lived. But my heart, you had it.

It was a place of love. It’s safe, like home.

Your voice…your voice was warm.

Your calls…your calls brought so many smiles.

I thought of you when I woke, I thought of you as I closed my eyes to sleep. And all the in between times, I thought of us. The future looked so colorful, so bright.

In your eyes I saw what could be. In your eyes I saw something real…something I waited so long for.

Now…you’re gone. How is it possible to be so sure but yet so wrong?

It’s been some time. I know now it was real. You, me…us, we were real along with all the emotions that were felt.

My heart believes you cared for me, that I meant something to you.

For whatever reason we weren’t meant to be one. No matter how hard I tried, it seemed as if fate was against us.

I’ve still yet been able to figure out why, but I’m sure I will soon.

I will remain patient while the universe does its thing. The answers will come to me.

One say I’ll look back and thank you for breaking my heart.

Hard to believe, but heartache does build strength.

I know more than ever exactly what I want and I am no longer afraid of going after it.

Thank you for that.

I miss you.

But I except that you weren’t meant for me.

Some days are better than others. Some days I don’t feel sadness when I think of you. But…I guess today isn’t one of those days.

My heart, you had it. And I’ll admit you still do somewhat. That’s OK, in time, the answers will come and I’ll completely be able to let you go.

For now, thank you. Thank you for coming into my life. A good thing you were.

Winter 2014