If I could, I would.

If I could, I would. If I could take all the pain away, no doubt, I would. If I could trade my heart for yours, just so I can relieve you of heartbreak, I swear I would.

If I could protect you from all the hurt that will come your way, I would. If I could shield you from all the ugliness that you will be faced with, I would. If only I really could.

If I could find the perfect words to assure you that everything will be OK, then I would know exactly what to say.

“I’ve been there”…is such a cliché, I know. But, my love, it’s so very true.

Every heartbreak is different. Whether it be from a parent, a friend or someone who holds your heart. I do too, know what it feels like to not be able to breathe. I too, have curled up with my knees to my stomach and arms crossed firmly against my chest.  I know what it feels like to feel so alone, so empty, so not whole.

I know that no matter how many “whys” you ask, it doesn’t ease the pain any less. When it’s dark, it’s dark. That my love , I know.

I pray you hear me, I pray that you believe me.

Trust me, my love, and know that I know it’s difficult. I really do understand. If I push too hard, that’s only because I can’t bear you in pain.

I truly don’t have all the answers, I wish I did. But what I do know, is genuine. Better days will come, you can count on that just like you will always be able to count on me. We lose faith in many things when everything around us is falling apart. Remember this my love, when you are weak, I will always be strong. I will forever be the rock for you to fall on.

One day, some girl will come along and she will become your rock, as well as you hers. Our worlds will shift and change. You’ll have children of your own, and then you will really know what it feels like to love someone more than life itself. And one day my love, you’ll be telling your son or daughter the exact things I am telling you now.

I know if you could, you would protect your child from all the pain and heartbreak that comes with life. Even when you say, “mom, you can’t protect me from everything.” Still, If I could, I would. And you will say the same. Just maybe, you’ll be better than I at it. That I pray for.

I’m not good at holding your hand. I’m not good at crying with you. I’m not good at a lot of things. But I am good at loving you. I am good at putting you first. I am good at trying my very best.

During this time of struggle, believe it or not, you’re growing. It may seem at times impossible to see the light at the end of the tunnel. But that’s exactly what it is…a tunnel that needs to be crawled through, dark and cold. You just need to keep going. Know that life will meet you half way if you let it.

Don’t ever give up, no matter what you’re faced with. You can and will prevail. The human spirit is so amazingly strong. All it takes is WILL. The will to go on. I promise, the best is yet to come. This will not be your only heartbreak, I’m sorry. If I could, I would make sure it was, but I can’t. You’ll see my love, there is good that comes out of every ending. What’s meant to be will be. Trust me.

Love,

Mom

 

 

 

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About me…let’s see….I would say I am a TRUE Virgo. If you knew me, then you would so agree. There are quite a few things I care deeply about. Off the top of my head, I would say with much passion, my family, friends, the environment and world peace. Oh and animals. Can't forget them. I think I love animals more than most humans, lol. I believe it’s important to surround yourself with good people. Be picky with who you let in your circle. The environment, the earth does not belong to us. We are merely just visiting for a period of time. So lets no abuse it. World peace, that’s a hard one. It’s not a perfect world, but wouldn't it be wonderful if every child, women and man were safe? We can’t change the world and every single soul living on earth. But one person can make a great difference in the surroundings in which they live. Wouldn't you agree? Let’s not forget what fuels my soul, music. It speaks for me when I can’t. It expresses my feelings when I am unaware of what they are. It has a way of lifting my spirits when I am down. It has this magical power that is able to touch my heart with just lyrics alone. I wouldn't know what I would do without it. Poetry, I love poetry. In all forms...written or spoken.

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