Have you read part I? I think you should 🙂 I mean…what is the point of watching season two of The Originals and skipping season one? Thought I’d throw in my latest obsession 😍 You know I use to hardly EVER watch TV. I’d watch a movie here and there but never spent my weekends watching hours of it. Then Netflix came along 🤦♀️ I get into my moments where I am totally stuck on a show. Then I’ll go for a whole month and hardly watch anything. That’s reasonable right? 😏
Ok…I feel good. Genuinely. My heart feels at peace and my mind is much calmer than it was 6 months ago. I didn’t have a huge epiphany and nothing drastic has occurred. I continued doing the things I was doing in part one of my What To Do When You Feel Trapped
I meditated daily and still do. I’ve learned how to control my thinking. Neither of the two has been easy. Every day, every hour I practice staying in sync with my higher self. My conscious mind and ego used to run my thoughts and emotions. Not so much anymore. When I start thinking anything negative, I immediately redirect my thoughts to – what would my higher self do? I’m not saying our ego and the conscious mind are bad. We need a healthy ego. An awareness of the NOW is also important. But if we’re not aligned with our higher self, it’s safe to say we’re walking around vibrating in lower frequencies. Blame…poor me…anger issues…a scarcity mindset…those are lower vibrating frequencies.
You might be wondering what the heck is your higher self. Well, we all have a higher self. It’s not two separate physical entities. Your higher self is your soul. Who you are at your core. Your bones, skin, and everything that comes with being human isn’t what or who you truly are. Yes, you have a personality…an “identity” you’re playing out at this time. What I just stated is very important to remember. “Playing out at this time.”
You don’t have to look outside to discover your true essence. It’s inside of you.
Death is not the end – Heda…The 100 lol lol
It’s crazy how I’m learning things that others have known decades ago. I never understood what Heda meant until my own spiritual awakening took front and center. (If you haven’t seen The 100 on Netflix, OMG you should) Death is the end of one reality but your higher self, your soul continues on to the next experience.
After countless hours of researching…still researching…this is what I believe. Have you heard of the Theosophical Society? I love their philosophy. We truly don’t know anything indefinite. We hear about near-death experiences from other people but unless we experience it for ourselves…until we see the other side, we don’t know what happens after we passed. BUT, the Theosophical Society says, if whatever we are choosing to believe in makes us a better person, then embrace it. It makes perfect sense to me.
Anyways…I got a little sidetracked there.
I just focused on being my best self. And in return, I feel like I healed some deep, deep wounds. Childhood head trauma has been released. A severely severed relationship with my mother shifted. A lot of forgiving towards others and also myself. I also had some major relationships end. I’ve been tested with friends and ex’s coming back in my life. the universe was testing me. Like, Roacilynn…have you learned? Was I going to stay in the same energies that didn’t speak to my soul anymore? Am I so afraid of being alone that I will revert to the old me? Will I settle for less than I desire? They were major crossroads in my life. I think I passed. The old me is gone.
For the most part, I feel like I was meant to just sit with the things I didn’t want. It forced me to face all this dormant anger. I know now that if I didn’t go through what I’ve been going through these past few years…I would not have found the peace I have now. I would have kept living in my darker egotistical side.
I don’t have much advice this time around. All I can say is, accept accountability for your choices/actions. Don’t run away nor drown yourself in numbness. Do the work. Don’t blame but look for solutions. You’ll realize that it’s all just perception. How you view things is how you feel. Having more control of your mind means living with more intention. Create your days and do not allow the external to create it for you. Got it? I hope so.