I was okay…

then you came along.

I was doing fine…

living in my mind.

then you came along.

So unexpected.

I forgot what it felt like…

to have no control at all.

My emotions raging like wild fire.

I’m finding it hard to breath.

Holding on by a thread.

I’m waiting…

for you.

Laying in a body of what feels like an open sea.

Still…looking for any sign of you.

Some nights I thrash and throttle with the waves.

Fiercely trying to hold on through the night.

Some days the waters are calm and I feel a sigh of relief.

I become hopeful that you’ll come for me.

But at this moment…

i feel empty.

I really don’t know anymore.

Would you really leave me out here alone to drown?

The seed of fear is finding life in me.

I really was okay…

before you came along.

Lingering in the shallow waters.

I was safe.

then you came along.