So…I tried limiting my social media use and not watching the news…It only worked for so long. Tell me why I just started a tumblr account??? 😂😂😂

I’ve come to the conclusion I’m a very empathetic person. Like overly. Sometimes I wish I could just stop. Just stop feeling the pain and frustration of what I can’t control. Orlando brought back all the pain I felt during Sandy Hook. I remember being so angry and depressed. I felt myself getting there again. I didn’t even know it happened because I was on my “staying off social media thing.” I got online to upload JLO photos for safe keeping. Then all the sudden Orlando floods my feed. Then I cried for the next week almost everyday and of course I watched every freaken news clip on CNN and everywhere else. Sighs… no matter how hard I try, I just can’t stop things from eating at me so much. I mean…that’s why I stopped eating meat! And I’m on day 6 of no chicken 😀 I think this time I’m gonna win. Crossing my fingers.

So I was debating whether to keep my blog or not. I’m still not sure. I want fewer distractions but I seem to build more. What is my freaken problem I don’t know, lol. I guess I just love to share things. I love dabbling in everything. I’m a writer. I love poetry. I love music and art. I love sharing new things I learn. I love sharing good vibes. Like If I’m enlighten by something….I want to share it with you. I don’t why. Maybe in a way I think the little things I do make some kind of difference. I know people hate some of my rants…but maybe one person out of a hundred will take to it? I mean one out of a hundred isn’t a lot…but if I can help one person or open their mind to a different way of thinking…I think it’s worth it. For me anyways. And that’s all that matters. Bottom line, I get gratification in doing my part in contributing. In sharing beautiful things.

But when I have a lot of things going on personally, I have to retreat. Like, I have to force myself to disappear. Then I can only disappear for so long because I feel some sense of obligation to do something. I can’t just not speak my mind when things are going on in the world. I’m unable to shut it out and only focus on myself and my inner circle. Noooo….I just have to be all in the mix with everything. Blah! (I’m studying extroverts and introverts right now, very interesting. A later post 😊 )

I’ve finally stopped crying over Orlando. Unfortunately, this will not be the last time I’ll cry over evil attacks on innocent lives. I just wish it would stop. I wish so many things would stop. Ugh…I’m getting frustrated again 😣

Lets switch this up a little…to something a little more positive. I’ve taken a great liking to Fifth Harmony. They’ve been around for a while but I saw them as little kids…because they were. I thought they were a cute little group but didn’t think much of them. I saw them last year at LA Pride. They were “disney like good.” Again…didn’t think much. But hot damn they’ve come up with this new album. There are some really good songs on there. So…I finally got curious about them. From there my research began. You see…if I’m going to like someone, or promote anything…I will dig for substance. And if you don’t have any, more likely I won’t be interested. And these girls, they have substance. They seem very down to earth, from humble beginnings. They’re intelligent. They believe in giving back and pride themselves in being strong women. It’s so fascinating seeing them at 15 and now at 19. It’s amazing how a child who once seemed powerless can grow into such a force worth listening too. I’ve discovered a couple of them like Bernie and one of them likes Hillary 😅 It’s all good. I’m happy to see these young girls actually giving a shit. I’m like a kid in the chocolate factory right now…and I loooove me some chocolate, lol. I think this group is what the world needs right now. We’re existing in a world where young girls look up to the Kardashians and that really pists me off. How is that possible?! Selfies and booty and fat lips seem to be…important??? Are you f*en kidding me??? I just don’t understand. Smh

I’m happy that Fifth Harmony is doing so well right now. This is what our youth needs. And me ☺ Strong, intelligent ladies that they can connect with. I think this group has the potential to save some of our young girls. Help show them that it’s not all about superficial bullshit. Looking pretty isn’t everything. It isn’t about just one thing, it’s about everything. We can have it all. It’s OK to be pretty and brilliant at the same time. It’s OK to have a brain and a nice booty if that’s what you wish. But I beg you to strive for a well rounded brain before fat lips. Please. There is so much more to life. Kids now feel so entitled. They’re fucken mean! And so disrespectful. Hard work? What’s that?  I can go on and on about all the wrong things. But that would be pointless. With everything going on in the world, it’s nice to have something positive shine through. I see big things for Fifth Harmony. I really hope they stay on the right track and don’t fall off like so many. They seem very humble…and if they stay that way….the world will be gifted with a force that is rooted in all things good. But they are human. I don’t expect perfection and you shouldn’t either. I just want the core of who they are to remain intact. Like, I’m such a mess sometimes…but the core of who I am, that will never change. I’m excited to see what’s to come. And maybe even go to their concert this summer 😁 And Ally, I love JLO too!!!

It’s time to get ready for bed now 😒 Have a wonderful week ahead. I’m hoping the tide changes for me soon. Mars finally goes direct and Jupiter leaves my sign in a few months. OMFG, shit really needs to happen already. No fear!