Dreaming awake…

Dreams have become such a burden now. If  I wake up remembering a dream, I feel completely drained. Does anyone else feel the same way? Are there any remedies? I thought a little feng shui was going to help. Why in the world have I been dreaming so much these past few months? Has me frustrated as all hell. Feeling lethargic seems normal now.  And that’s not me. I have my occasional days, maybe a week of feeling blah but it’s not the norm. My body isn’t very happy lately. My mind, still runs but I can’t seem to stay entirely focused 😥

My dreams have been so random that I kinda gave up on what the universe is trying to tell me. Attempting to try to make sense of it all is exhausting. It’s nice to not have to think. I had to re-subscribe to Netflix. I need a freaken outlet from this chaotic brain of mine every now and then. Netflix has some awesome shows though. I’m obsessed with sci-fi and parallel universe type shows now 👽 I assume my studies of astrology has led me to science and discoveries of all the possibilities. I won’t get crazy and write about past lives and reincarnation. At least not yet 😆

Anyways, we’ve entered a new moon/solar eclipse phase along with tons of energy /planets shifting. In Pisces! 🐟🐟 If you don’t know anything about Pisces, here’s a link below for a quick read.

http://www.astrology-zodiac-signs.com/zodiac-signs/pisces/

They are the last zodiac sign. From what I’ve read and watched (YouTube fanatic 🤓 ), it’s an ending of the…”year/cycle.” We think January 1st is a new year. In the astrology world it’s not. We also have a new moon which means new beginnings. A solar eclipse is like pulling off the vail. The truth must be faced. All these energies are going to affect everyone. Differently of course. We all have different baggage and desires. No one person’s life is identical.

My dreaming awake issue means I’m asleep, dreaming but still conscious at the same time. My mind doesn’t get to rest. Resulting in me being so tired all the time.

I’ve been dreaming about people from my past way too much lately 😒 Not really liking it. These past few days I’ve been trying to find the answer as to why. A message from the universe is being sent to me. I already thought I was done with lessons regarding past relationships. Any wrong doing on my end, mistakes and regrets have been rectified. I’ve forgiven myself and others as well. So WHY? I have to get to the bottom of it. With all these planets doing what they’re doing, I NEED TO FIGURE IT OUT. You can imagine my mind all day, everyday, lol. It became a new mission to tackle.

I think I figured it out this morning. The 27th, a day after the new moon/solar eclipse. It’s not necessarily anymore lessons I have to learn. It’s just the clearing out of it ALL. Unconsciously our past still has a hold on most of us. It peaks up at the most fucked up ass time usually. It’s not a bad thing. It’s the universe trying to help us. The universe knows all our truths and hidden secrets. It does what it needs to hoping that we face our fears and step up to the darkness that over shadows us. The piscean energy can lead us into some very emotional dark spaces if we’re not aware. Right now may not be the best time to indulge in alcohol and drugs. I don’t recommend drugs at all, ever. But if that’s your choice of escape, I can’t judge. We all have our weakness. Even food and sleep. Some of us rather just sleep most of our day away and not think about anything. I’ve made a conscious decision not too drink much and no Netflix 🙄 Even when I get up in the morning I don’t turn on the music. I just lay there and let whatever is coming to my mind come.

Saturday the 26th, after a bit of a restless night. I woke up at about 7:30ish. I was in a hotel room (had a night out 💃), opened my eyes and it was super bright in our room. If felt like noon already. Thinking to myself, it’s going to be a nice day. No rain!!! The pillows…aaah the pillows were like heaven. Feeling so snuggled and comfortable. Then I remembered my dream! About someone I’d rather not dream about. Why am I dreaming about her again??? There is nothing. I literally feel nothing. It’s been a few years so why now? I had another dream recently about someone from like 10 years ago! Insane.

The only thing that makes sense is…at this moment, planetary alignments coupled with Pisces energy…🤔 I’m clearing EVERYTHING out. The cycles are over. Like I’m done. You know how on Facebook  brings up posts from your past that you can share again? Well this was mine today.I thought wow. This reaffirms my thoughts.

Right????! Our past really is just our past. We don’t know why things happen all the time. There are plenty of regrets and wishes for a do over. BUT, we can’t change the past. If we’re lucky enough to have survived some of the most difficult times and learned from them…then damn that’s one great success story. When I say LEARN…I mean you’ve owned up to EVERYTHING. No sugar-coating shit. You faced it all and let yourself feel everything. Than voila, you’ve grown. Are you much wiser? Damn right you are. It’s a new level. You’re becoming more of the person you were meant to be. We’re all some kind of masterpiece. It doesn’t happen over night. Like the Statue of Liberty… wasn’t created over night right? And OK, Ed Sheeran can write a hit song while drunk ass hell in a few hours. But he still has tons of worn out, washed up ink of papers and crumpled up napkins tucked away before that one masterpiece ever came to life. It takes work. We’re all a work in progress.

We can be thankful for the past. Reminisce on good times. Feel sad over some not so good ones. Ultimately, there is nothing left in your past. It’s over and it’s done. We need to focus on the now. Those who follow astrology, you know what I’m talking about. You know what you’re suppose to be doing right now. We know how crucial this time is.

Some of you might be feeling a little confused, emotional, or even short-tempered right now. It’s normal. Just gotta breath. Light candles, jog, mediate or stay close to the water. Pisces is a water sign. Two fishes. Very sensitive and dreamy. Find things that calm you but keep you in a state of consciousness. It’s a great time to set your intentions for the near future. Work on creative things that help you express yourself. I can’t emphasize enough that it’s time to heal, change and activate your authentic self.

The world is crazy right now. Truth is, it’s an awakening to what once was and is no longer. When Hilary said the future is female, she’s speaking the truth. This is so much more than about politics. We’re in a massive universal shifting point. We’re being guided to move up into a higher vibration. In order to do so we have to fix our insides. Change comes from within first. If your shit isn’t right, fix it. HEAL. FOCUS. Stay woke 😅 It’s going to lead you to great things if you do the work. Believe in yourself.

Sighs:: 😌 I hope I stop dreaming so much. Since I “think” I figured it out. If I’m gonna dream, please let it be pleasant  😁

💁Goodbye now. Past my bedtime 😪 As always, love and light going your way 💙

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About me…let’s see….I would say I am a TRUE Virgo. If you knew me, then you would so agree. There are quite a few things I care deeply about. Off the top of my head, I would say with much passion, my family, friends, the environment and world peace. Oh and animals. Can't forget them. I think I love animals more than most humans, lol. I believe it’s important to surround yourself with good people. Be picky with who you let in your circle. The environment, the earth does not belong to us. We are merely just visiting for a period of time. So lets no abuse it. World peace, that’s a hard one. It’s not a perfect world, but wouldn't it be wonderful if every child, women and man were safe? We can’t change the world and every single soul living on earth. But one person can make a great difference in the surroundings in which they live. Wouldn't you agree? Let’s not forget what fuels my soul, music. It speaks for me when I can’t. It expresses my feelings when I am unaware of what they are. It has a way of lifting my spirits when I am down. It has this magical power that is able to touch my heart with just lyrics alone. I wouldn't know what I would do without it. Poetry, I love poetry. In all forms...written or spoken.

5 thoughts on “Dreaming awake…

  1. This is me every day and every night for the last few years. I’m a zombie during the day at work. When I wake up I’m mentally, physically, and sometimes depending on the dream, emotionally shattered. It’s like I’ve lived another day because they seem so real. I can feel people, see them, hear them and smell them.
    I’ve tried rocks and crystals next to my bed. Magnesium, supposed to aid sleep and relax your muscles. Even alcohol. I can’t sleep a night without dreaming.
    I so tired of being tired…

    1. A few years is a long time to not sleep well. I wonder if you’re going through an ascension phase. Maybe there are a lot of things subconsciously that need to be resolved? Maybe you should get a reading done. It might tap into what you’re going through during this time in your life. I know for me a lot has been going on. Like a few years of the universe kicking my ass. Now I’m sorting through it. My dreams have been telling me a lot. I do get the occasional…Wtf dreams lol. I hope soon this phase will be over.

      1. My sister has suggested I have a reading as well. I’ve never had one before and I’ve always been interested to do it but now it scares me and I don’t even know why.

      2. Maybe the first step is to open yourself up to it. I have a few really good ones I follow. I’ll post their links if you want. I think after watching them for a while you’ll actually connect with them. Then eventually trust them enough to actually open yourself up like that. I think the fear is that they truly know how to read us. They can see our battles and where our destiny lies. Which is insane and scary. And especially if we’re unsure of ourselves already.

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