City Life

Noise, a lot of noise. I use to want the city life. Etching my way to Los Angeles was always the goal. Two years ago I was on the move, it was finally going to happen. But the universe had other plans for me and it became a distance goal once more.

I live in the 13th largest city in California with over 300,000 people. Right in the heart of this city. Freeway noise, tons of fast food joints, trash, traffic and a whole lot more noise. This is the city life right? Although LA offers beaches and boardwalks 😏 the trade-off is worth it…? It’s easy to imagine what could be. Reality is another story.

Covid has forced me to really look at my environment closely.

Four months in and damn I hate the noise! I hate hearing my neighbors. I hate the sound of UPS trucks going over speed bumps. I hate hearing the acceleration of “fast” cars. You know, them damn Mustangs and cheap knock offs. Ill mannered humans who blare their music at 1 am 🤮 I’m really not liking this at all. I don’t mean to be negative. This is how I genuinely feel 🙄

I’ve been exposed to mindless entertainment (Selling Sunset) with my new found freedom. I like it 🤣🤣🤣 Poor Chrishell.

I started watching Heartland on Netflix. I’m definitely not a cowgirl but a nature-loving person. Beaches, hikes, trees, blue skies…you name it, I love Mother Gaia. I’m wondering what it would be like to wake up like Jack does. Sitting outside on your porch and seeing nothing but what God created. It feels magical when I picture it. I find my heart longing for peacefulness more than anything else nowadays.

Something has changed. Or I’ve discovered something in me. Or…I’m just getting old 😬

Nonetheless, my aspirations of living in LA has changed. Gosh I can’t imagine sitting in traffic and encountering so many people in a single day. And I know the streets aren’t clean! I hate walking the streets of San Francisco. It’s nice once you get pass the smell of urine and dried throw up from Friday night. City life is fun but honestly, everyday of it might be too much for me now.

I’ve never lived in the countryside. I can only envision it and assume how I’d feel. Looking pretty good in my mind so far.

I don’t think I would have come to this conclusion if I was still at work and living how I was. It’s hard to think outside the box when hands in the box keep you busy.

I’m currently allowing myself to flow with ease into my new goals. Like, only attach to things and people that connect to my heart, my soul. Surrendering to my inner being so it can guide me and not external forces.

aaaahhh…no noise, tranquility. Hey, I may change my mind in 6 months 🤭