Why I Had To Let Go

why I had to let you go…

your arms are the chains that wrap around my neck

your body is the anchor that connects to the chains

you pull me down, so far under

beneath who I am

i find it hard to breath

you’re constantly pulling, weighing me down

i love you

all of you

it’s still not enough

your reasoning

your past

somehow makes it ok for you to torment me

to hurt me

to make me cry

and i still loved you

i prayed with all I have that somehow I can heal you

but I’ve realized, no amount of me will ever be enough

the demons you carry are powerful

you give them so much meaning

you hold on to them like a crutch

you stay in a state of brokenness

in a state of needing

i love you

but I’m so exhausted from just trying to breath

a natural act has become so hard with you

you spiral to the deep, dark parts of your soul

and every time I find myself there with you

trying to keep you afloat all while risking myself…my well being, for you

constricted by your chains as you continue to pull me down

light flickers through rippling waters above me

underneath the moving current, the chasing of waves… light still finds a way in through the darkness that surrounds me.

i’m choking

almost out of life

i must go

i must survive

i cannot save you

i was never meant to

now I know, it was my own soul that needed saving

from all the obligations I afflicted upon myself

the good in me allowed takers to keep taking

i allowed you to leave me feeling lifeless while you fill up your own cup

the kindness in me knew you needed me

the compassionate in me knows you didn’t mean any harm

my soul has been calling for me

tired of putting it second

tired of always running when you call


my rose-colored glasses are off

clarity beams in

only you can help yourself

and I give myself permission to set myself free

i’m sorry love, but this is why I have to let you go


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About me…let’s see….I would say I am a TRUE Virgo. If you knew me, then you would so agree. There are quite a few things I care deeply about. Off the top of my head, I would say with much passion, my family, friends, the environment and world peace. Oh and animals. Can't forget them. I think I love animals more than most humans, lol. I believe it’s important to surround yourself with good people. Be picky with who you let in your circle. The environment, the earth does not belong to us. We are merely just visiting for a period of time. So lets no abuse it. World peace, that’s a hard one. It’s not a perfect world, but wouldn't it be wonderful if every child, women and man were safe? We can’t change the world and every single soul living on earth. But one person can make a great difference in the surroundings in which they live. Wouldn't you agree? Let’s not forget what fuels my soul, music. It speaks for me when I can’t. It expresses my feelings when I am unaware of what they are. It has a way of lifting my spirits when I am down. It has this magical power that is able to touch my heart with just lyrics alone. I wouldn't know what I would do without it. Poetry, I love poetry. In all forms...written or spoken. I think that's it :) Wait, then there is God, the source of everything. Astrology, quantum physics, Abraham Hicks, Agape...I should just end this now, LOL.

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