Free

I have never felt more free than I do right now. It’s been about a month since I’ve been laid off.

Side note: I just received a letter from my former employer denying my claim asking for more money (severance package). Just to give you guys some context, I’ve been with this employer for about 13 years. Left for a year due to circumstances out of my control. The facility I was at had some issues with volume/production leaving me with smaller checks. So…I left. I was lucky enough to be able to return (you guys wouldn’t believe the year I had at the new job!). The next few years were actually really good overall. I mean, who can say they love everything about their job? I grew an incredible amount in just a few short years.

Anyways, back to the denial. Per their “policy,” I was entitled to only 3 and not 13 years of benefits due to that year gap. Total bullshit. Figured I would try and fight it. I lost. No surprise. Why would they want to give away more money than they have to? About a hundred of us are losing our jobs (not counting another facility shutting down also) while promotions were happening and millions of dollars were given to top executives. To be fair, I could have transferred. But with all the uncertainty with the company and Covid, I decided to stay put.

This has taught me a great lesson. To never invest in someone else’s business more than you invest in yourself. You can give years of your life and still be left feeling under-appreciated. Remember at the end of the day, the wellbeing of the company will always come first. All that overtime, working weekends….🥴 (because I wanted to be a good “employee,” not because I needed the money) think twice. I will have to get back into the “workforce” eventually because…I don’t want to be homeless 😬 I also have a family who depends on me so it’s not like I can just couch surf and be broke 🤷🏻‍♀️

The up side…

Corona has been a blessing in disguise. At least for me. How I navigate and continue to navigate on this earthly plane has changed forever.

Okay…Freedom. Something I value so, so much. Most of my life has been such a rat race. I am so fucken exhausted. All that striving, goal setting, doing…no wonder I’m super gray! hahahaa

It’s time to slow down. Or at least shift my focus. There are so many things I use to want that no longer mean anything to me. I won’t get into details here. Rather let’s talk about what WE (us newly unemployed folks) could be doing 🙂

I may not have the money to travel out of the country or do anything super extravagant but there are still tons of things on the table. I enjoy almost anything outdoors. The best things in life are free 🙌🙌 Well, maybe not for you…? Some people don’t enjoy the beach or a good hike as I do. Like, I don’t have one friend who loves it. That’s where my dilemma comes in. There are so many things I would love to do, like drive across the country. The only problem is, no one else wants to do it ☹ I’m kind of a chicken 💩 and that stops me from doing a lot of things alone. BUT I was thinking recently (after I watched a show on Netflix 😆), when will I have time to do WHATEVER, WHENEVER I want again? Life asks from us. It’s a balance of growth + hardships. Downtime + pleasures. Right now I need to embrace the latter. So I have a list of places I want to explore. I’ll have to put on my brave girl pants because it will be solo trips. I am a firm believer of – if it’s your time, it’s your time (still scared though, lol).

If you’re currently not working and there’s no rush to look for work, why not do some of the things you said: “if I didn’t have to work I could be doing this”? There is no better time! There are so many things in California I haven’t seen yet. Which is insane considering I’ve lived here my whole life! You’d be surprised how many local outings are available in your backyard. If sightseeing isn’t your thing, I’m sure you have other aspirations or experiences you wish you had more time to do. 🤔 Well? 🤷🏻‍♀️

Lets do our thing!!!

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About me…let’s see….I would say I am a TRUE Virgo. If you knew me, then you would so agree. There are quite a few things I care deeply about. Off the top of my head, I would say with much passion, my family, friends, the environment and world peace. Oh and animals. Can't forget them. I think I love animals more than most humans, lol. I believe it’s important to surround yourself with good people. Be picky with who you let in your circle. The environment, the earth does not belong to us. We are merely just visiting for a period of time. So lets no abuse it. World peace, that’s a hard one. It’s not a perfect world, but wouldn't it be wonderful if every child, women and man were safe? We can’t change the world and every single soul living on earth. But one person can make a great difference in the surroundings in which they live. Wouldn't you agree? Let’s not forget what fuels my soul, music. It speaks for me when I can’t. It expresses my feelings when I am unaware of what they are. It has a way of lifting my spirits when I am down. It has this magical power that is able to touch my heart with just lyrics alone. I wouldn't know what I would do without it. Poetry, I love poetry. In all forms...written or spoken. I think that's it :) Wait, then there is God, the source of everything. Astrology, quantum physics, Abraham Hicks, Agape...I should just end this now, LOL.

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