Two months?! OMG

It’s been two months since I posted??? OMG! I can’t even say it’s writers block because there is so much going on and I have tons to say about it. Smh. ::sighs:: I think I’ve just been really busy. Especially in my head, lol. Sometimes I find myself being busy for nothing. I dabble in too much. Waaaay too much. These past few months I’ve crawled into a little shell. A shell that exists in my mind of course. We all need a little solitude right? Right.

I’ve taken something new on. Surprise, surprise!!! 😂😂😂 It’s different this time though. I swear, lol. I’ve really, really gone within to think about what the hell is it I’m suppose to do with my life.

Conclusion: I want freedom. I want to be able to do what I’m meant to do. Save the world and dabble in everything 😄 I’m sure now. It’s not money…although I need money to be free. Free with my time. I don’t care for titles. I don’t care about what people think anymore. Like I’m suppose to be HERE…because you’re THERE. I have no desire to be better than anyone. I have no reason to prove myself to anyone anymore. People don’t know where I come from. What I’ve come out of and how many road blocks I’ve had to face. I’m at that place now. A place where I am proud of myself for all that I have accomplished. With no comparison to anyone. Because now, I choose me. I stand alone as an individual. I am strong and sure of myself as I am. I can do whatever I want to do…with myself, with my life.

I was on the wrong path for awhile. I guess I had to go on it to figure out what I really want. And do I want to spend another few years trying to get a degree just to tie myself down to a desk? Chained by the demands of someone else? Nope. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life on someone else’s time. I’m no longer working towards that. So…I’m on an alternative route. Of course I’m still working. No reason to give up great benefits and decent pay right now. Being an adult means you have to be an adult. And I like to live alone 🙂 I can’t imagine living with my mother or even having roommates. OMG 😰 But, it’s time I work towards the freedom I want. So no more dabbling. I don’t have anymore time to waste.

I will continue to write because I’m a writer. I just may not be able to as much as I’d love to. I have some hardcore studying to do for the next few months and that will take a good chuck of my time. Not to mention I have a social life that I’m not willing to give up either. So BALANCE is very important. Other projects will have to be put aside for now.

It’s hard. Life is hard. I keep saying that, lol. And I’m sure you feel the same at times. I’ve been thinking a lot about some of the entrepreneurs I follow. They all have their own unique story. I have a story to tell. Everyone loves a great story right? 💁 And I think my story would really resonate with a lot of young women trying to find themselves as well as single moms trying to accomplish more. Instead of starting a project geared towards this, I’m going to keep a journal of my progress instead. Creating an actual blueprint will take time and like I said earlier, I can’t dabble in too much right now. I’ve set a 3 month goal for this whole real estate thing. That has to be my main focus. The older I get, I find it even harder to focus 🙈 Jupiter is in Virgo right now though…I got this 🙂

Anyways, this is just me rambling. I just felt like I needed to reach out right now. Go Hilary! And go Lexa!!! My obsessions right now 😂😂😂 I’ll back soon. Hope all is well. XOXO
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About me…let’s see….I would say I am a TRUE Virgo. If you knew me, then you would so agree. There are quite a few things I care deeply about. Off the top of my head, I would say with much passion, my family, friends, the environment and world peace. Oh and animals. Can't forget them. I think I love animals more than most humans, lol. I believe it’s important to surround yourself with good people. Be picky with who you let in your circle. The environment, the earth does not belong to us. We are merely just visiting for a period of time. So lets no abuse it. World peace, that’s a hard one. It’s not a perfect world, but wouldn't it be wonderful if every child, women and man were safe? We can’t change the world and every single soul living on earth. But one person can make a great difference in the surroundings in which they live. Wouldn't you agree? Let’s not forget what fuels my soul, music. It speaks for me when I can’t. It expresses my feelings when I am unaware of what they are. It has a way of lifting my spirits when I am down. It has this magical power that is able to touch my heart with just lyrics alone. I wouldn't know what I would do without it. Poetry, I love poetry. In all forms...written or spoken.

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