let me tell you a little something about death

it’s a part of life, and knowing that fact doesn’t make it any easier

especially if it’s someone you were deeply connected to

a sudden death will haunt you

it will break you in ways you never knew could

nothing will make sense

you’ll have questions, and no matter what the answer, it’ll never quite ease you enough

people will tell you what they think is appropriate to say. but unless they’ve experienced such a loss, they’ll never truly understand

a piece of you goes missing…

to never return

life keeps going and you keep breathing

moving along with the daily routines

bills don’t stop when someone dies

business as usual because…well…what the hell else are you supposed to do?

it’s a paradox

how your life stops but everything else keeps spinning

for them, it’s sad for a moment. for a day. a week. maybe even a month.

for you, emptiness becomes your new best friend

better get used to it

eventually talking about your dead loved one gets old

you’ll sit in your darkness alone

marinating in loss and hopelessness…with bursts of anger

the aches…your heart aches so fucken much you can hardly breathe

i know this feeling too well

but…

one day though, the emptiness will start to feel normal

a once large piece begins to shrink, little by little

Memories are passing…and so are the waves of emotions that take you by surprise

it starts to hurt less

the sadness becomes a little bit more manageable

the 5 stages of grief are real

my advice, try and find something that feeds but also heals your pain

alcohol is temporary I’ve learned

nature and long walks seem to help so maybe try that

take solace in knowing you’ll see them again

this may sound woo hoo like, but I really do believe those who have crossed over are still around

i dream about my mom so much it’s like she’s still with me

It was hard to share this. I didn’t want to. But I also wanted to…

i’ve always said writing is therapeutic

maybe this will aid to my healing

i know I’m not alone

people lose someone they love everyday

now I understand your grief

and I am so sorry for your loss

im different now

life for me truly does have new meaning

because tomorrow isn’t promised

and that’s a fact. Not empty words only to scare you

let’s not waste the time we do have

make them count ♥️