Do people mistakenly judge you? Often…
Some people see me as “money =’s self-worth.” A materialistic woman. There is nothing further from the truth. I am success driven, yes. (But I never liked school though. Always thought it was a waste of time. I use to think I was lacking in that area, I don’t anymore) I’m constantly trying new and different things to define my own success.
I work hard for what exactly? It’s not to buy the biggest house or fanciest car, although there is nothing wrong with wanting those things. For me, it’s truly for FREEDOM.
The desire to live in a manner where I don’t have to answer to anyone came about in my mid-twenties. I started getting so tired of the “working class” world. Years later I’m still working…for someone else.
It’s my own fault and I take full responsibility for it. Honestly, I think I just wasn’t really ready. I mean, you can push someone all you want. If a person isn’t ready for a certain thing…change…love…forgiveness…it isn’t going to happen.
Divine timing is real. Things play out in our life for our betterment. Even the fucked up things. I think if you continue to grow and do your best in life, you’ll be rewarded. Note, if you’re a complainer and blame others for your shortcomings…you still have a long way to go.
Age is just a number… kind of. I think that depends on the context. The older I get, the wiser I become. That’s a fact. I’m an old soul but that hasn’t stopped me from making mistakes and learning from them. Time is flexible. But all living things have a shelf life. So in that context, age isn’t just a number. You might be one of the lucky ones that live a long life. Let’s pretend you’ve been chosen to do so.
From my experience, as well as others…it’s when you hit 28/30 years of age that you start shifting your mindset. The future seems so much closer. You start to notice your bad habits and patterns. BETTER START GOING WITHIN. It’s time to be brutally honest with yourself and get it together. Fast forward 10 years. This is of course just my personal opinion but I think around the 40 mark…which is 2 Saturn Returns for everyone (astrology fact)…you should have done most of the work. (Dark Night of the Soul...face your darkness, fears, apologize, forgive and heal) The next half of your life should be the fully formed you. Yeah…we’re always evolving but I hope you’ve learned that how you feel about yourself is the most important thing, ever.
I’m getting close to that 40 mark. I’ve been through plenty. I’ve learned so much. #grateful
Finally, our culture is redefining itself. A new world is here. Do you know anything about 3D? If not, just look at politics. Or even the educational system. AI? It’s amazing. I’m pretty happy to be alive during this time. A massive shift in the collective consciousness is happening.
So back to my point. Who said we couldn’t be free to do what our heart desires? All these rules. My old age has made me more confident to break free from all these chains 👵😁 Of old structures, self-doubt, and fear. The breaking of cycles and patterns in order to become who I am supposed to be. And now I am here. It’s pretty fucken awesome.
There will always be more to do. It’s never too late to start. Or even too early. Ask yourself, what do I truly want out of life? Why do I want this?
“I want freedom for the full expression of my personality” – M. Gandhi