This morning I was super emotional. Seeing all the footage at the airports just made me so sick to my stomach. Sometimes I wonder if it’s just me. I know other people see things like this and think to themselves – that’s fucked up. Then they move on about their day. I on the hand get so consumed. Anger, sadness, fear…you name it, I feel it. And it stays with me. It keeps me up at night. Then I wake up in a horrible mood 😣
For these very reasons I have to limit myself from the news and social media. I’d drive myself insane if I stayed so plugged in.
I wonder why it’s so easy for others to look the other way and why it’s so hard for me not to. Sometimes it frustrates me. I’m just so overwhelmed and tired a lot of the times. It would be nice to be a little bit more carefree. But no, I insist on carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders. I try though, to relieve some of the worrying. With tons of reading and researching I’ve learned how to somewhat control it. I’ve discovered what kind of person I am. Introverted and what that truly means. Not just antisocial. If that’s what you think you’re wrong 😏 I also have extroverted tendencies as well. I’ve studied myself 😌 It’s a bit comforting knowing that there isn’t anything wrong with me 🤓 And there are others out there like me. They understand me and I understand them 👽
I found this site that I thought was pretty cool. Basically another tool to help guide me. To understand myself even more as well as how to protect myself. More work. Self development never stops. I’m happy I enjoy it. I think the more you develop yourself the more you uncover your true reason for being. Like I know I’m more than just atoms utilizing space. Technically I am but I know at least with a purpose. And that’s exciting. To not just exist but to actually have a purpose.
For any spiritual beings out there, this might interest you. Especially if you’re a little weird like me 😂
I’ll probably be spending the next week or so dissecting this site. Fun! And I mean that 😀
There’s chaos in the universe right now. At least more than usual because this world we live in is too painful for too many people a lot of the time. I’m gonna try my very best to stay grounded. We all should. Year of the fire roster…and I believe that fire is with our emotions. I think it can get real out of control right now. Slow and steady…let’s not get lost. We need to stay focus. The roster sometimes walks around in circles looking confused. I know what that feels like, lol. We need to stand up and take action but let’s make sure we take the right course of action. Mind and heart need to work together. Both are equally important right now.
Take care of yourself and your neighbors 🙏 love and light your way.